decisions lyrics

.Decisions June 7th 1998

1) Too Much and Enough © Don Bray/1997
My daddy told me you gotta have fun
Some days you fight 'em and some days you run.
Be your own man but fill your neighbour's cup
And it's a fine line between too much and enough.

He had his first drink when he was fourteen
It loosened him up you know what I mean
Years later the bottle wouldn't give him up
And it's a fine line between too much and enough.

One fateful evening when out at a bar
He met a woman and he went too far
Then my mother she took a knife and carved him up
It's such a fine line between too much and enough.

My mother told me "I feel for you son,
But you weren't married to the son of a gun.
Such a charmer but, then again, he drove me nuts."
It's such a fine line between too much and enough.

So, follow your heart and do what you must.
Take a life out with someone you trust
But remember, temptation can be tough
And it's a fine line between too much and enough.
(x3)

2) EVENTUALLY © Don Bray / 1997
She's at home most any night, Just her and her tv.
All those voices in black and white help leave her more at ease.
It's been years since she lost her James, she feels every day
She just knows they will meet again
And dance, eventually.

She gets calls on Christmas Eve that she just holds onto.
She says, "How's my grandson and the little one. Yes I miss you too.
Says goodbye as she hangs a tear on her Christmas tree.
We'll come out they say every year
At least, eventually.

Snow is falling, Family's calling. Her phone rings and rings.
There's no answer·she's out dancing with James where the angels sing.
She had faith it would all work out. Time would set her free.
She'd become someone's memory
And fade, eventually.

We don't know it but we are born from the stars and the deepest sea
And, though we feel lost, we will all be returned
Eventually.

3) WHAT ELSE COULD I DO? © Don Bray/1995
She walked with him on school days
He met her at the gate
And one day when they were older
She asked him for a date.
And he said " Love, love, love
What else could I do, what else could I do
I'm so in love with you."

And he asked what he could give her
The day he walked her down the aisle
She said nothing but the laughter of our children
And your smile.
And he said "Love, love, love
What else could I do, what else could I do.
I'm so in love with you."

And the years went by like the sun goes down
And the kids grew up and they moved from town
And the only thing kept their hearts so strong
Was their holding hands as they walked along.

And her walking got much slower
Until he pushed her in a chair
And she said Love don't let me linger
This pain is more than I can bear
And I would rather not be here
Would you please help me disappear.

And he said "Love, love, love
What else could I do, what else could I do
I'm so in love with you. (x3)
What else could I do?

4) DON'T EXPECT IT TO © Don Bray/1997
It's hard walking along to nowhere
Eye the horizon, expectations nil
Who cares where tomorrow may deposit you
When you don't have a second left to kill
Time will wait for no one
It sure won't wait for you
Don't expect it to!

Let's get crazy·see what damage we can do
Run in the streets stripped down for a lark
Stay out late and count the television lights
We see things different naked in the dark.
And time will wait for no one
It sure won't wait for you.
Don't expect it to!

Let's talk endings and arrivals
The signs of our survival
The lies we like to live in.
Let's talk the pain that we keep covered
The joys we don't discover
The gifts that go ungiven.

It's hard walking along to nowhere
Eye the horizon·don't expect a thing
You'll be lucky if tomorrow deposits you
Where there's room to roam and space to sing.
Time will wait for no one
It sure won't wait for you
Don't expect it to!

5) LONELY'S LONELY ©Don Bray/1997
So you stand there disbelieving
'Cause it's happening again
Will you be forever leaving
'Til the end?

And the door is staring open
like an eye you're seeing through
With a vision blurred by all these
Déjà vu.

And you know lonely's lonely
Yes, and you know blue is blue.
It's only your own baggage
that keeps packing up for you.
What can you do?

You can blame the one you're running to
Or the one you're running from,
Or the ones before that taught you to run.
And perhaps you will remember
When, again, you've found you're lost
It was you decided leaving was the cost.

6) REAL BIG MAN ©Don Bray/1995
Well, he thinks he's five eleven
But he's really five foot two.
In his deepest darkest dreams
He'd like to be like me and you.
He'd like to go out dancing but his Momma needs him home
So each and every weekend he just sits around alone.
He tries so hard to please her but it seems he never can.
Some day he'll get a chance to be
a Real Big Man.

He gets up every morning
and he straightens out his room.
It really isn't crooked.
It's as straight as a tomb.
He goes down to the bathroom and combs his thinning hair
And he sees his day before him but there's really nothing there.
He has dreams he should remember but it seems he never can
Someday he'll get a chance to be
A Real Big Man.

Someday when he gets older,
Maybe someone will appear.
She'll be big and tall and beautiful
with long, long hair.
She'll stroke his balding forehead and kiss him on the lips
And place his trembling fingers on her child-bearing hips.
And just like a stroke of lightening he will finally understand
There's really nothing to this being
A Real Big Man.

7) DECISIONS ©Don Bray/1997
She grew up on the prairie in a tired old farming town
Where the grain grows thick; like breakers
It can almost make you drown.

And the girl left for the city as early as she could.
Her mom showed no forgiveness but
Her father understood.

'Cause he grew up in the wheat fields beneath the moving sky.
And he watched the clouds go rolling off
to somewhere far and wide.

And he wed the one he's living with he loves his only bride.
But all these years just left them here
As the world went blowing by

So he stands outside the co-op and he watches as the bus
Picks up the girl so dear to him
And turns her into dust.

And he sees it slowly disappear beyond the old town line
And he wonders what he'd be out there
If he'd ever found the time.

So he walks back to his pick-up and he gives his heart a shake.
There's no way you can say good-by
To the promises you make.

He married his decision she waits where he resides.
And a man's not what he dreams about...
A man's what he decides.

8) I'VE BEEN WAITING©Don Bray/1997
It's been taking much too long to conquer what I fight.
Even though I walk my own way and push with all my might

I've been searching every face for signs of what I seek.
I've been lost in time's embrace like shackles on my feet.

I've been waiting... to see the mists divide.
I've been waiting...just hiding here inside.
I've been waiting...it's time for me to go.
I've been waiting...for my heart to know.

I've been dreaming perfect dreams with both of my eyes shut.
You might think that I've arrived and I guess I could have...but,

I've been waiting...to see the mists divide.
I've been waiting...just hiding here inside.
I've been waiting. It's time for me to go.
I've been waiting for my heart to know.

9) LIE FOR ME ©Don Bray/1995
Tell me that you love me, even though you don't.
I really need your help for just one night.
It's been a long, long time since someone said that she was mine.
A little lie from you could make things right.

The way you lie for me
Could be the sweetest charity
The way you lie for me
Could make a man who's achin'
Just a little bit less forsaken
Lie for me.

Look at me with those eyes, and walk the way you do.
The way that makes the boys go through the roof.
Wrap your arms around me just as if your love had found me.
I promise I will never ask for proof.

Take me to your mansion the one up on the hill,
The one that everybody wants to see.
Take me to your heart-shaped bed, the one I carry in my head,
And show me how you're going to lie for me.

The way you lie for me
Could be the sweetest charity
The way you lie for me
Could make a man who's achin'
Just a little bit less forsaken
Lie for me.
(X2)

10) ONE LESS WEARY WITNESS ©Don Bray/1997
The sun will rise tomorrow just like it always has,
with one less weary witness to impress.
And I will wake to Mary and she will wake to me,
but what will mark the absence our hearts see?

If I could I would bring him back.
I would hold his hand in my own.
'Cause I can't see how a man could be,
So completely alone.

There can be no rebuttal there won't be a goodbye
To grace this grievous sunset in our sky.
So I will face the music and still my shaking hand
With every fading memory of the man.

If I could I would bring him back.
I would hold his hand in my own.
'Cause I can't see how a man could be,
So completely alone.

The sun will rise tomorrow just like it always has,
with one less weary witness to impress.

11) ROLLING HIM ON HOME ©Don Bray/1997
The old man waits for sunrise,
Remembers day through younger eyes.
Morning sailing, ocean tides
Rolling him on home.

All the girls in all the towns,
All the destinations bound
All the love he ever found
Rolling him on home.

The restless sea was where he lived
And where he chose to roam
And all his lonely sailing dreams
Aren't rolling him on home.

He had a child in '55
He never saw her lovely eyes.
But in his thoughts she's by his side
Rolling him on home.

His life seems like a sunset
an ever moving target.
He never thought that he'd regret
Rolling him on home.

The restless sea was where he lived
And where he chose to roam
And all his lonely sailing dreams
Aren't rolling him on home.

The nurse comes in at 9:03
To wash his wasting body.
He fears that time will never be
Rolling him on home.

12) COULDN'T DO IT WITHOUT YOU©Don Bray/1997

I've been waiting for the good things
To suddenly appear
Like a baby on the doorstep
Or the beauty in the mirror
I've been hopeing for somebody
To make me see the light
Been a long lonely waiting
On a cold and windy night

It's been so long I've been looking
Everywhere but here
Now with my hand on my heart
Everything seems clear
And I know there is an ending
To this journey we're upon
May we all find direction
To base our passing on

There's this light in the eyes of
Everyone of you
Who have helped me as I stumbled
To this place I have come to
There is love and there is laughter
Of such monumental hue
And though I stand alone
I couldn't do it without you
And though I stand alone
I couldn't do it without you.